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Thursday, December 02, 2004
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i noE i veri piG laRhz... oSo feel lyk riting de... budden rite abt my daily life will bored u all to death... hmm... let me rite abt how pathetic i can be bahz... mebi more interesting... den read le mebi can luff at me... hahahs.. even i am luffing at myself...

hate to fall in love... mebi not hate bahz... why did i always choose to fall in love with the wrong person... when there's a right one... aiya... mebi some would sae there's no such thing as a wrong person to fall in love with... grr... i dunno how to sae la... sae le will mao dun de... aiya... nvm... i juz sae... it's like i mean wrong person as in falling in love with sumone whom u thought had feelings for u but it aint e truth... budden... i did sae i fell in love with ppl whom realli did the same... but it was me whu found out mine was not true... den it's like i am e bad guy... so actually i dun have the right to blame those whu are doing the same thing to me right now... juz cant forget every thing i did... nth that happened can be forgotten right... they'll always remain as memories... unless i lost all my memories...

and now... i dont wan to make my mistake again by hurting ppl... but its like i am preventing myself to fall in love in order to do this... den i wouldnt go confess any bit of feelings to any girl but in the end found out its fake... i have lost confidence in myself of giving my heart whole heartedly to someone... i am not able to know whether am i loving that person so true enough... tt's why even if i had fell for sumone... i dun dare to tell her of my feelings... i juz wonder if is it i really dun wanna repeat my mistake again or i juz dun dare to search for love anymore... it's realli a veri "wad" feeling lorz... the person u fell for is juz infront of u but u dun wanna go for it... and u dunno if u're scared of hurting her or juz scared that she might be juz an illusion...
but if u're scared of hurting her... wouldnt u be doing that if she actually wans u but u're not going to do anything? making her wait... when u have already made her fell for u too...

u see... saying that......... argh... dunno how to say this part... sighX... suaN Le... i have so much thoughts in mind but juz dunno how to write it down u see... finishing here... budbyE...

-=paiNfuL=- buT i duN haF thE rigHt to feeL it aT aLL...

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10:34 PM